Thursday, September 30, 2010

For your Entertainment: Learning Experiences and such

Alright.
I'm going to combine a few different days and points that I had partially drafted, and show how they affected me, what I learned, and things that are good to remember anytime, anywhere. Namely, that God is in control and won't give you more than you can bear, helping you walk and survive at the same time; and that life requires self-sacrifice, balancing acts, and perseverance.
I also apologize for errors or jumpiness. I'm a bit tired, and I wrote this while being tired. So read with a mind willing to forgive a few errors =P

Now. You remember that 6 hour writing class I mentioned 2 weeks ago? Well, below is what I started writing that evening, but I was too exhausted to finish it...and then other events happened in my life that I felt took precedent. So, for you entertainment, Saturday, the 18th of September:
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Wednesday, September 29, 2010

Progression

Hey peeps!
How are things?
Well, for me, things are...progressing. Yeah. I guess that's the best word to describe things. It's been a few days since I last posted, but it feels longer =P
It seems that my doc did get me some major referrals to some specialists. Tuesday we saw a pain specialist who said I was one of the few people with true fibromyalgia, and one of the worst cases that he's seen in his 15 to 20 years of practice all around the world. What a joy to be so unique *chuckles*. But he said that he could give me some immediate pain relief with cortisol shots in my shoulders and shoulder muscles (4 shots total) on Thursday (same week! Tomorrow morning!), but he wasn't' sure how long it would last. Fibro patients usually only have short lived relief from shots like that, so we'll just have to see. That's why he's only doing one trial area - my shoulders.
There's also an experimental treatment (highly expensive) availabe, but he says that it has never been used on fibro patients.  Still. It might have a chance of working. What is it? Laser Treatement. They eliminate the stem pain nerves in my joints with a laser, to disrupt chronic pain and allow the body to heal and get out of its "pain cycle". But again. It's experimental. Dr. Srini (the pain specialist), said that it was pretty much a last resort. So if everything else doesn't work, I may the first trial patient with fibromyalgia to get it. Who knows.
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Sunday, September 26, 2010

Blessings and Gratitude

Hello Muselings!
So, I have a question. How many of you consciously try to "Count your blessings?"
Hmmm?
Do you try to find out what went "right" in your day? What God's given you? What you're thankful for? A few friends and I keep gratitude journals, writing down something to be grateful for every day. Now, I must confess that I haven't been doing so as of late, but I have been doing it more verbally. I'm hoping it all evens out :P
But the point is to help keep you focused on the positive things in your life.

You see, when you think positively, you are more productive, you are happier, and you encourage people with your mere presence. But when you think negatively, you are less productive, unhappy, and act as a wet blanket of doom in and on everything.
Which sounds better to you?
I'll to with the positive one, thankyouverymuch.

I personally would have not made it this far if I hadn't 1) Given me cares to God, 2) chosen to be happy and 3) chosen to be positive inside and out.
Being positive has allowed me to write this blog so that, at the end of posts recounting "bad" days and news, I can point out What God has done in my life. It allows me to see the silver lining in a situation...to be as I was meant to be--an encouragement. That doesn't always happen, mind you. But without a positive attitude about life, love, and living with and through both, there would be mostly "Doom and Gloom". I don't want that. You don't want that.

So, today, grab a piece of paper - a post-it-note even - and write 3 to 5 things that you are grateful for today. Then, compliment somebody, and at the end of the day, ask yourself if you were a blessing to others, instead of a curse. Because if you were a blessing, your name could be on someone else's gratitude list.
Congratulations!
You just impacted your world for good. =)


Be Well!
-Rae <3

          My Gratitude list:
  1. It rained yesterday
  2. It's a beautiful, cloudy day
  3. Even though I couldn't go to church today, I can get the sermon online
  4. A friend of mine is getting baptized today
  5. I have friends who missed me today
  6. I have people I can say "I love you" to
  7. My brother Matt gives me hugs now ^_^
  8. Showers
  9. Warm blankets
  10. Music boxes
  11. Watercolors
  12. Family
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Friday, September 24, 2010

"Getting to know you"

Hello everyone! This is a very simple post.
Why? Because I only have one subject. =)
I've noticed that I get about 50+ visits to my page per day now (and I only have 18 official followers :P)
So I would like to get to know my readers!
Introduce yourself!
Your name,
your blog (if you have one),
your country,
and a favorite thing to do in your free time.
Oh! And two more things:
1) any particular subject, thing, etc... that you would like me to blog on, if you have such a wish
and
2) What you have found most encouraging or engaging on Musings (i.e. what keeps you coming back for more :P)

These will help me both know you, AND help Musings get better as she she grows older. :)

So speak up!
Let me know you're here!
I'd like to know you, oh shadow people!

Your very interested Inty (Internet friend),
-Rae <3 Read more ""Getting to know you"..."

Thursday, September 23, 2010

I'm Tired. Oh. And I now have another doctor...

Hello Muselings!
So, I have some updates for you. Today is going to be a more "point by point" day, so bear with me.

On Tuesday, I had that 6 hour keilation, i.e. heavy metal poisoning testing. It went alright. Three friends called me, I had free wi-fi, and the lab nurse gave me nicknames. So it was all good XD Now we just have to wait another week for the results. If I DO have heavy metal poisoning, then I will go through a major detox. Then my immune system can hopefully recover and kill off the pathogen that's wreaking havoc on my system. If there isn't any poisoning, then my immune system is already shot and will need a serious antibiotic regime to kill off the bacteria/virus thing....and it might take quite a while. But the doctor is at least hopeful that we will eventually get this aspect sorted out. But what's worse is the following.
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Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Waiting....

For those of you who haven't read my previous blog post from yesterday (which is here), I have a bit of an unusual and busy day today.

I am leaving to teach in about 30 minutes. I'm looking forward to it, because Essie is making GREAT progress and has almost doubled her essay writing speed in two weeks, and can now crank out an outline with 3 main points AND a hook and closing in 2 minutes. =D Progress, much? International writer, teacher, and speaker Andrew Pudewa seems to approve of my methods so far as well, but we are still swapping ideas and tips etc... I'll update you guys on that as/if it progresses further *happy smile!*
So, teaching. Then, I drive straight from teaching to the hard part of my day....the doctor's. I will be at my doctor's at least 3 if not 4 times this week, plus a pain specialist if we can get a referral soon enough.
But They are doing Keilation (look it up :P) over a 6 hour period to test for heavy metal poising. Since my liver and kidney's haven't been working very well in cleaning my blood, or fluids in general, and my body has basically been in survival/self-destruct mode for 2 years, it makes it quite likely. But this is just the first step in a many step process to deal with a pathogen, possible widespread poisoning. It will just eliminate one more complication from the process of "healing me". But it won't "help" any of my other conditions. But what it IS doing is getting rid of the poisons and pathogens that are canceling out other treatments for my other diseases.
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Monday, September 20, 2010

You won't believe me unless I put in in print for you

Alright my peeps. Still working on that Saturday post. It's actually up in another tab, waiting...no....imploring me to finish it. I will. Probably tomorrow. =P
But right now, I have today's update, which is much simpler..I think. But then, I've just gotten started on this post, so who's knows how long it will run. (I just reread this part, and let me tell you...It's one of the MOST complicated and hectic posts I've done in a while...sorry =/)

I wasn't able to go to class again. It's been weeks, literally. And it's felt like it, too.  But I was able to sleep a bit this morning, which was nice. Since I haven't been sleeping much, it was actually more of a miracle. But it was only a few hours. Then, I had to avoid various contractors looking around the house. We're getting the kitchen completely ripped out, mold growth removed (We had flooding under the floorboards a few months ago that spread to the walls), new cabinets, island, and counter tops installed, and a complete reconstruction of that wing of the house. Then most of the house is getting repainted, and all of the pale hardwood floors (not the dark cherry Brazilian maple though) are going to be ripped out and replaced with new hardwood flooring. It should look pretty nice when it's done. I get to help pick out the paint scheme, which is awesome. My mum comes to me with color swatches and says "I want your eyes on this thing. What would work best where and why". And you know what? I can tell her all that and more! My art teacher Ms. Rew would be exceedingly proud of me! ^_^

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Sunday, September 19, 2010

You, Love, Priorities, Prayers, and GOD

Hey all. I'm working on my very long update and "inspirational" post about Saturday and things I have been learning, but right now, I have only one thing to ask.
Pray.
Yeah. Things aren't going well. I couldn't go church. I collapsed outside my door this morning, and had to wait to gain enough energy to stand back up, open my door, and make it to my bed before I collapsed again.
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Friday, September 17, 2010

Coding, Drinking, and Dying. And Did anyone say "Letters"?

Well, today has been a mixed feelings kind of day.
I couldn't get to sleep until almost 6:00 this morning ( almost said last night =P), so I spent the majority of that time working on the devo website. It doesn't take THAT much concentration to copy and paste, you know? And school, well, lets just say I tried, and I fizzled out. Bombed. Went kablooey. Poofed. "Either way. It'll work" (Princess Bride anyone?...man. I want to see that movie with a bunch of girlfriends now. Slumber party!)
Ahem. *announcers voice* "And so Rae tramped slowly but surely back from the baby rabbit trail she had been following to the slightly more obvious deer trail that might eventually lead to a people trail that then might back some sense"
.....
Yeeeeah. This is me NOT high on pain killers right now. Kind of funny how they're pretty much the same. XD
Anyhoo.
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Thursday, September 16, 2010

Ho hum

Well, today has been pretty uneventful.
I slept in today till about 11:00. For those of you who go to public school - BE JEALOUS! We homeschoolers do sometimes get to sleep in. It also helps that my doctor wants me to rest and I have multiple health issues that require such copious amounts of sleep *sly grin* Still. I can rub it in, can't I? *chuckle*
I then got up and prepped my teaching plan for today, as I was teaching my student Essie how to go through the right thought processes necessary to form a good essay. She has shown significant improvement in her writing and her organizational abilities in just the two weeks we've been working together. It seems that my teaching methods are working quite well! At our present rate of speed, she will be writing phenomenal essays in record time when our sessions are through. And the SAT essay? A piece of cake! It's actually kind of fun, too. I had a prompt about a snail and genetic modification for her to write a timed outline on, and she thought it was so weird that she posted it as her Facebook status. She got a number of people saying "That's hilarious!" and "Wow! Your tutor actually has you write on stuff like that? Jealous!" and the occasional "She must be a nutball. Are you sure you're going to learn anything?" Hahahaha
It's amazing.
But she even admits to having learned from me and grown in her writing, and that's the best part of all.
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Wednesday, September 15, 2010

I COULD name this post something clever, but I don't think I will....

So.
This morning I woke up at 8:00. I groaned, thinking I could have slept in til 9:00, as I had IV therapy at 10. But nooooo. My mum knocks on my door at 8:30 asking if I'm almost ready to go so we could be at the doctor's for the 9:00 appointment. No freaking way I was ready!! AH!!!!!
I sit there, panicked, for about 10 minutes. (I think my narcs had a bit to do with that part.)
Then I jumped up. NOT a good idea, ladies and gentlemen, especially when you don't have the energy, or ability to do so without feeling like you are being drawn and quartered. Just saying.
I hop haphazardly around my room gathering one sock, then pants, then a brush, then the other sock, then a book that I try to fit in my pants pocket with no success, then a shoe, then a pain pill (like I needed ANYTHING else to mess with my brain), then the other shoe.
Viola!! I...wait. I forgot a shirt. So I got a shirt. Next thing I know I'm wandering towards the kitchen, weaving back and forth, my hand trailing along the wall, my eyes blinking blearily and a stupid half-smile plastered on my still "not-quite-with-it" face.
Joy.
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Tuesday, September 14, 2010

IVs, Chicken Broth, and Melatonin

Well, I got back from the doctor a little bit ago. It seems that they were able to squeeze me in for my neuro testing and spinal ultrasound early, so I got both appointments done between 10:00 and 12:00.
I have a number of new pills to take, including another hormone. I'm to stay on my high dosage of pain killers, and I am going to have weekly IV therapy infusions. We may actually go up to two times a week if they seem to do any good. If not, then we're going to be looking at fibromyalgia and health clinics outside of the state, and then hospitals. I'm just praying that the new meds and the therapy will work.
The only thing about the IV infusions is that it will take about 2 + hours for every infusion. That plus the lydocaine that they're going to put in my IV (usually used by the dentist to numb one's mouth, but for me, used internally to help relax my muscles and numb my hyperactive nervous system), will make that day pretty much shot. I won't be able to drive myself anywhere, and will be pretty tired afterwords. But if it helps, then so be it!
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Dum de dum de dum....

Wow. Ok, so I really haven't fulfilled my promise to tell you about me and little talks with the Holy Spirit, who is my constant peanut gallery. Cool and weird at the same time.
But, this morning, as I was sitting down to my computer to go through all my new emails, facebook notifications, and blog posts from people I'm following, HS said to me "James 5:11". I blinked, shook my head, and looked around for my bible. It wasn't close. So I went to biblegateway.com, looked up James 5:11, and lo-and-behold...it was exactly what I needed to hear.
Perfect for my situation.
"11As you know, we consider blessed those who have persevered. You have heard of Job's perseverance and have seen what the Lord finally brought about. The Lord is full of compassion and mercy."
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Monday, September 13, 2010

Letters, Gatorate and Phone calls...not in that order =P

Muselings! Hullooo!

Today, not much has happened. I was able to get a bit of sleep last night, unlike the night before. I think that doubling up on my narcs, adding melatonin (a natural sleep aid), and being so exhausted that I literally passed on on my pillow made it possible XD
But sleep I did.
So, this morning I woke up, then lay in bed feeling weak, but not really caring. I was going to veg. Simple as that *happy smile* I hobbled out of bed at around 11:30 or so, using the railings, walls, and doors as supports. Dizziness and instability seem to be my constant companions these days. Michael was downstairs dressed as a cowboy when I came out of my room. He galumphed up the stairs, grinned at me, and gave me a hug. Awwwwe. =)
 A restroom break and one sip of gatorade later, I was sitting on the top step of our main staircase, with Michael babbling away to me and resting his head on my lap. I love moments like these. And today, there were MANY moments like them *happy sigh*
I went in and out of my room pretty frequently today. I am way too sore and in way too much pain to stay in one position or one place for too long, so it was necessary. During my forays into the "outside world" (i.e Michael's room, the bathroom, and occasionally even downstairs to the kitchen and library), I spent more time with Michael, recieved lots of Mummy hugs, and watched everyone else eat lunch =P. Grandma A stopped over at our house for a few hours and got to have lunch with us/them, which was nice. I love her so very much!!!
I went back into my room after lunch, and tried to sleep. But sleep would not come. I thought of bunnies. I thought of trampolines. Heck....I thought of eating crunchy, cheesy goldfish....again (I think I'm hungry =/) *shakes head* I'm weird, I know!
*pause*
But that's why people love me!!!! *cheesy smile*
Anyway. I sat back up, took a deep breath, and tried to concentrate through the drug induced and sleep deprived fuzz in my head. I tried working on a bit of homework, but it just wouldn't stick. I tried reading more in my devotionals, but that didn't work much either. So I surfed the internet, and found some widgets for blogger that I'm going to use for the daily devo blog I'm setting up. It will be called "Abundant Living"...I think =P I already have a few people in mind to do guest devotionals, and I hope that ALL of you who are reading this check out the site. It will hopefully be up by this weekend (Lord willing).

After some surfing, I got a call from my "adoptive sister" Casey. *happy smile* She and I talked for almost 50 minutes. She made me laugh and smile, something I hadn't done much of today, as today hadn't been "the best", if you know what I mean. I love my Case! She's amazing!! ^_^
So then, once we got off the phone, I dosed up on pain meds again, was feeling more tired and grouchy because of lack of sleep, but decided to smile in spite of it all. Some sweet tea, Earl Grey and Cinnamon tea, Gatorade, and Water filled my headboard for the remaining hours of the day, until now...when I have Sweet tea, Gatorade, and water sitting on my headboard *chuckle*. Since I'm not eating, I have to stay hydrated.

I just finished a letter to a friend (The FIRST letter I've ever written to them! I'm excited to see what they'll say/write back! *big grin*). Did you know that I've written well over 60 handwritten letters in the past 3-4 years? Yup! And most of them with nib/feather pen and colored inks! It makes me happy writing encouraging notes to people! Truly Truly!
Oh! So, do any of you, even my overseas friends, want a letter? Do you want to be "pen pals"? Because I'd love to start writing letters to you! Just shoot me an email with your request and address, and we'll get started! =D

Anyhooo.
I'm just waiting for the ink to dry before I seal the letter with wax. My sister will deliver it to my friend in person tomorrow, since I won't be going to co-op tomorrow because of doctor's appointments. I just wish I could see the look on her face when she gets the letter *smile* Now, I have a few more letters to write this week, letters I've promised to people. I'm also expecting a few in my mailbox this week too. I'm excited!!

A prayer request I have for ya'll is for tomorrow. I think my Spinal/neurological conductivity test is as 2:00, but I'm not sure. The only thing I'm positive of is that my doctor's appointment is at 10:00, and the test is later in the day. If you could pray that things go well, and that I can get some GOOD news instead of the usual bad news, that would be quite lovely.

I love you all! And I hope your day went well!
Keep in the Word, keep smiling, and keep loving. The world needs all the love you can give.
I SO love you! =D

Be Well!
-Rae <3 Read more "Letters, Gatorate and Phone calls...not in that order =P..."

Sunday, September 12, 2010

Blogging and More Blogging - The Next Chapter

Well, it seems that I will be posting a fair amount these days.
And here is why.
One: My doctor gave me a sleep aid and had me double up on my narcotic, which I take every four hours. It's helped dull some of the pain...but amazingly enough, the hundreds of milligrams of pain killers still don't eliminate all of the pain. *sigh* I'm "surviving" though. Your prayers are still very much needed, and I will accept any and all you can give. Especially for my neurological test on Tuesday, and my IV therapy on Wednesday.
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Hardships, Hope and Drummond

Hello my people.
This could be my last post for a while or it could not. My health is deteriorating so fast that I can barely walk now, barely keep fluids down, and am close to a catatonic state because of pain despite my 4 strong prescription pain killers. Unless we get another pain killer added into the mix, and unless IV therapy works on Wednesday, I may have to be hospitalized. I'm starting to wish for morphine and supervised care. Yes. Me. The one who doesn't like to admit when she needs help and who wants to do everything on her own. I'm almost desperate for help, so you know things are bad.

One thing I've been struggling with the past couple weeks, and especially the past two days, is "why". Is this God's way of testing me to make me more like Him, to learn to depend on Him, to give Him my all? Or is he using the trials the Devil is putting me through to reach those same ends? If it is the Devil, then God must have some great purpose for me, as the Devil only goes to so much effort for so long if that is the case. I'm wondering what that purpose could be, because right now, my greatest achievement of the day is making it back up the stairs without blacking out.
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Saturday, September 11, 2010

We Will Never Forget

I remember that day.
The smoke.
The screaming.
The people jumping from the top floors of the building, falling past the gaping, garish, flaming holes in the towers.
I remember running to my dad, who had shut himself in his room after the first tower was hit, yelling "They got the second one, daddy! They got the second one!" His disbelief, and reassurance that they were just showing footage of the first one's collision. But no. He stood in horror as I stared, numb, as the second tower crumbled. As the ground became littered with rescue crews, emergency equipment, debris, and dead bodies.

The devastation will never leave me.
I saw it.
I understood it.
The true evil of it all, and the overwhelming loss, I felt it. I bottled it in.
MY family was in the military. MY daddy sometimes worked in tall buildings. MY family sometimes flew in planes. MY family sometimes went to New York. That could have been me. That could have been someone I loved.
That is why I stand in shock and horror.
That is why I will never forget.
It wasn't me. It wasn't you.
But it was thousands.
It affected millions.
It started a war that has lasted from then until now.
That war has affected billions.
It was act of terror.
And it will NEVER be forgotten.

For we are Americans.
We are the Attacked.
But we are the Free.

We stand when no one else will.
We will rise from the ashes
And We will let our flag fly high

May the Lord bless you and keep you, all who were affected, and feel the sting of that dark day.
Because WE - WE will never forget.

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Health in Focus - One: Spices

People People! Gather Round!
A tale of hope
Is to be found!
Spices! Spices!
Sights and Smells
Follow your nose
and sit right down!

I mentioned in the comments section as well as in my post "Food and Libation", that I would review the health benefits (if there were any) of any plants, spices, herbs, or foods that you had questions about.
Today, I have the first post in my "Health in Focus" Series, to discuss the spices that Robin Peyton asked about.
They are as follows:
  • Turmeric
  • Cayenne Pepper
  • Saffron
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Thursday, September 9, 2010

Time and Time Again

Well, before I do my post about healthy spices, I thought I'd do a post about my health issues *cringe*
As I said this morning, I went to the doctor. I had my blood drawn today, with only one stick in the arm. But that was the only good news today.
What I heard was far worse.

I now have such severe, tender, and sharp pain in my abdomen, back, and right side, that my doctor has prescribed a narcotic. As I mentioned before, he does not like prescription drugs. But he seemed almost eager to give this to me, as he's never seen me flinch and give as many stifled moans of pain when he's done his physical examination. More good news? He says I also probably have a kidney stone.
So, before I left his office today I received a CAT scan. It made me feel more nauseous than I already was, and pretty dizzy. But that's nothing new.

I have to see him in 5 days. He was worried, and moved my neurological and spinal conductivity test to tuesday, then he wants to see me about my pain, and then set me up for IV drip therapy, using a cocktail of drugs, nutrients, fluids, and vitamins to try and keep me stable, especially since I still can't eat.

Oh! And did I mention that on Tuesday I also have to have a bunch more blood work done? I really am the hardest patient in Dr. Fetter's practice. Everyone there knows me, or at least knows about me. It's kind of funny, actually.
One of the nurses has black hair that half mohalked in the back, and then side swept in the front with a purple stripe. It's amazing XD

So, once I got home today and told y dad about the developments, he roared "What?!" and then went on about how messed up the situation is. Yes. Thank you dad. I know. *sigh*

But an encouraging call from Daniel, who's pretty much like my older brother, helped cheer me up. After our conversation, I called Ellie , planning to leave an encouraging voice message on her phone that she could listen to when she got out of class. But right in the middle of the message she called me, so we actually got to talk with each other for a few minutes! YAY!
She's not doing as well as either of us would have hoped, physically. They think she might have syncope like me, and she's having to come back to Indy for some more testing tomorrow. :( It makes me sad just to think about it. I hate to see her hurting!
I more often ask "Why, Lord?" in cases of my friends having issues than with me. But, again, I know it's all in the Lords hands.
The song "Blessed be Your Name" comes to mind in cases like this.
And so, today, I'm striving to not give up and break down....which I am close to doing right now.
I'm unable to go to The Rock tonight, but Daniel said he'd ask them all for prayers for me. 45 people praying is pretty awesome, if I do say so myself! =P Prayer can do wonders!

I'm also teaching in less than an hour. I was going to cancel today because I'm barely able to move without shaking and collapsing. But I'm going to have to skip out on Latin class and cancel teaching on Tuesday, as most of the day will be taken up with the neurological testing, IV therapy, and doctor visit(s). Feeling bad or not, my class deserves all the time I can give.

Anyway.
I'll post tonight about those spices, if I feel cognisant enough to type.
I love you all, and will pray that your days and nights go far better than my own, at least physically. Remember to put your trust in Him today, and to spend time in the Word. It will definitely help you have a positive attitude, and most importantly, HOPE.

Also, if you are insterested in any of my music mixes, many of which I use to bolster my spirits and start my morning off with some extended worship time, let me know! I'll be happy to provide some =D

Be Well!
-Rae <3 <3 <3 Read more "Time and Time Again..."

Today.......*glare*...Just lovely

Today won't be my day either, I'm guessing. But maybe once I actually wake up, read my quiet time, and listen to some worship songs, I'll be a bit more optimistic.
But let me tell you why.
I just found out that Where I was going to wake up at 9:00 this morning for a 10:00 doctor's appointment, my mum wakes me at 8:30 telling me the doctor had to change my appointment to 9 freaking o'clock....yeah. Half an hour. PLUS, he was having me do a complete fluid workup again. His reasoning? I haven't been eating, so the fast shouldn't have been a problem! Well, bucko, I'm not supposed to drink fluids, either, and I was up till 2:30 this morning chugging away on a gatorade and copious amounts of water. Still. He wants it, he gets it! I just hope the two to three vials of blood they need don't cause issues like the multiple sticking of poor old me, or worse, the needle being held by a grouchy nurse. That's all I need. Because right now, I'm a bit of a grouchy patient. Oh. And it's a good thing I keep two extra bags of sterile collection bottles and syringes, or you'd me out of luck, mister. Yeesh

So, once the Bio101 fluid testing is done, I have to wait about 15 to 20 minutes to actually get a nurse to take me back to the room, then usually sit there for another 10 to 15 minutes before he actually shows up in the room. I like my doctor and all, but this yo-yoing of my treatments and "do this, don't do this....do this again" is really irking me.

It doesn't help that I'm feeling crappy,have to miss my bible study and major social night with lots of hugs and friends and good teachings tonight because of my health issues.
Gah!

...........*deep breath*.
Alright, alright. There I go again. Griping away at my situation *Sigh* I'm sorry. Forgive me. I'm still working on the whole "Giving it over to God without questions", you know? But, right now, it's not so much of a question of "why" as a statement of "Crap....are you sure you doofus's know what the heck you're doing?"
Yes. I have recommended my doctor to other people.
Yes, I still would.
But...know that I am not a good example of anyone's doctoring abilities. I baffle them all *rolls eyes*....unfortunately.
So now I'm going to flip on a bit of my "Be Happy" music playlists (should I post any of them for you all? You want to hear any of my dance, indie, worship, or encouragement/be happy mixes? Huh...never thought about that), maybe do a half-hearted, grouchy jig to some Indie music (even that thought makes me smile), and haul myself off to the blasted doctor's to see what else is wrong with me.

I'll post again later when I have more time.
On today's agenda: The first post in a series of posts about health, questions you all may have about the health benefits of foods, spices, herbs, and plants, and anything else interesting, that you want to know, or that I want you to know :P
Post one is: Health in Focus - One: Spice
 If you have anything you would like me to review, a tea perhaps, or your favorite herbs in food (such as basil, mint, oregano, etc...), or anything else, let me know. My passion and hobby of Herbology and natural medicine serves me well here, as does my fast library of book resources sitting in shelves in room.

So. Carry on while I'm gone getting stuck with needles, poked and prodded, and weighed like a piece of meat.
I'll try to get a better attitude.
*yawn*
Four hours of sleep can start you off to a bad day already.


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Wednesday, September 8, 2010

Resolved: To Overcome Myself for the Greater Glory

Today's been kind of rough.
I was supposed to take my sister to Artclass and Piano, to help my mum out. But I was feeling soooo bad after last night, that I could barely make it out of my room. I still got myself dressed, and ready to go, but when my mum saw me, she said "Hey...I can take her. You can stay home". The only part of that was, I had to stay home with my little brother *chuckle* He was and IS very energetic today. But his reaction when he saw me was a squeal of pleasure, a huge dimpled grin, and an adorable half shy half excited skip towards me to give me a hug around the legs. If that doesn't make someone smile, I don't know what will!

But....my right shoulder feels like someone tried to rip it from it's socket. Actually, it's my WHOLE right side today. My head, neck, back, shoulder, hip, everything. I'm still nauseous. I'm still headachey. I'm still feeling worse and worse as the week progresses. I also feel like every ounce of energy has been sapped from my body, meaning every movement is in some way agony or at least, a major effort.

Still. I managed to find pleasure in playing with my brother. Today, the pleasure was in telling him another "Knight Bob" story with stinky trolls that like silken underpants, talking pigs who more often than not get squished, dragons with memory loss, and a horse name "Horsey" who gags at any "off" smell.
Fun fun fun XD

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Tuesday, September 7, 2010

*Sigh* Life, Right?

Ok. So my friends are weird. It's pretty much a given if I spend any kind of extended time with them. Meh. They're more interesting!

But first, I'll update you on my life....
It's boring and exciting and ordinary at the same time. *shrug*
Let me explain.

Monday, I was "partly bedridden". I couldn't get out of bed much Sunday, had to miss church, and of course, carried over my pain and exhaustion to monday. BUT! The good news is that I can rally myself for an occasion. At 1:03 monday afternoon, my brother Matt (15) knocked on my door saying Dad was busy, He had to do finish his geometry homework so he could call up his friend Lewis and help him do HIS math, and Mum and Sarah (13) were out shopping. I now had Michael duty - or, watching the 3 year old, your eyes on him every second :P
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Sunday, September 5, 2010

Food and Libation

As the heading suggests, I am going to discuss food and drink.
More specifically teas, and food that I want to eat when I CAN EAT AGAIN.
Anyway.

I think I'll go with the food first. I seriously have been thinking about one food after another that I have a "craving for", and couldn't even eat if I wanted to.
So, when I'm healthy enough to actually consume solid foods again, I want to eat the following over the course of the next few months:
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Saturday, September 4, 2010

Blogger's "Stupid As..." Questions: Post I - Goats and Slinkies

So, many of you might have seen the "question" section one can answer in your blogger profile page.
Well, as I was cycling through the many inane ones, I was astounded to find THIS one:
"You're trapped in a well with a goat and a slinky. Describe how you will escape."
 Seriously?
Shoot me now.
Or shoot it now.
Or something.
Anything.
Ok. So yes....I answered it XD
And below is my answer.
Wait for it!
...
.....
.........
Oooone.
*pause*


Twwooooooo
*longer pause*


Thhhrrrreeeeeeeeeeee
*Even longer pause*


Ok. Here it is. Enough darn waiting.


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My. Brain. Huuuuurts.

Ok. So, if you know me, you know I like Monty Python quotes. One Liners, sketches, episode reenactments, the whole lot.
And the hospital was no different.
When I was there and dosed up on my "craaazzzy psycho-prancing pony-escapist patient in hospital gown!" medicine, I thought to myself.... "Ni!.....I am a knight who says "Ni!".
My mum looked up from her book, gave me a weird look at said "Oook."
My goofy grin must have gotten to her, because then she laughed.
Many lines followed, including her and I repeating the title of this post back and forth to each other (a famous Monty Python Sketch quote, might I add). "MY. Brain. HUUUURTS."
And between my mum and I in a small, slightly echoey hospital room, an IV stuck in my arm, my hair mussed, and announcements on the speakers of hospital patients who need to "get back to their beds", It was a pretty amusing time.
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Thursday, September 2, 2010

It's All Good

Right!
Hello all!
Today has been quite an interesting day :) I was supposed to sleep in yesterday to rest up from my medically eventful weekend...but I didn't. And today I had to meet a potential tutoring client (student and her mum) for a meet-n-greet, portfolio overview, etc... So no sleeping in today either. Instead, I woke up at 7:00, sent Ellie her text, took a shower, and gathered together all my supplies for the meeting. I must say that I was quite spiffy and prepared. Very professional. And let me tell you....it paid off. I now have a Writing Class that I'm teaching two days a week, where I give out homework, grades, the whole shebang.
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Wednesday, September 1, 2010

It All Comes Down To Love

A friend of mine said a few days ago that "I love how life is so simple, yet so few people truly understand it. Love God. Love people. That's it."

We so often make life such a complicated thing, just trying to hold on for dear life. And yes. Life can throw us curveballs, hand up 18 credit hour semesters, give and take friends away, and give us situations which we are unused to dealing with. But that doesn't mean we have to let it overcome us, or control us.

1 John 4:16 says "God is love, and the one who remains in love remains in God, and God remains in him" (HCSB)
That true love comes first, when we accept Christ, and then, when we come to Him daily in prayer and reading, wanting and praying and asking for him to fill us.God IS Love. How much simpler can you get?
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