Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Quote of the week # 4

"The Happiness of life is made up of minute fractions -- the little soon-forgotten charities of a kiss, a smile, a kind look, a heartfelt compliment in the disguise of a playful raillery, and the countless other infinitesimals of pleasurable thought and genial feeling."

-Samuel Taylor Coleridge Read more "Quote of the week # 4..."

Monday, October 25, 2010

Highlights: Visitations, French Vocalists and Relationships

My Muselings! Hi!!!

It's been two days since I've posted! I'm sorry!!!
I've been pretty tired, or busy, or forgetful. And that combination pretty much means no posting. =/
But! I am here to remedy that!
The past few days have been good! Molly and I are still enjoying our time together, I'm still writing good morning notes to her, and her hugs are amazing *happy smile* But that's not all that's gone on this weekend!
You see, my "other mother" and head of my accountability group, Jaime, came to visit me on Saturday. She brought me a shake and then sat and talked with me for a while. When she first arrived, she engaged Molly in a conversation too, much to Molly's surprise. I just stood back and smiled, as I knew Jaime would do that. She's awesome and accepting that way. She'll pretty much adopt Molly the next time she sees her. *chuckle*
By Saturday night, I knew that I wouldn't be able to make it out Sunday morning. I knew that I couldn't push myself that early, as I my body is telling me even more now that I can only push myself so far in the next few days without me having another relapse and/or major pain flair. Lucky me. So, surprise surprise, I didn't go to church. But I did spend time with Molly and her family that afternoon, even going out in her brother Bryce's Audi to the mall. We got Pumpkin Pie blizzards from DQ (Me finally getting my way to pay for Molly.) She protested and harumphed and complained as I knew she would. I enjoyed it even more that way, shoving the fiver into the cashier's hand as Molly placed her hands on her hips *grin*. I'm mean and vexing in a nice way! =D

My mum came over that evening too to deliver a gas card and some more spending money (since I'm living elsewhere and my parents pay for gas still ^_^ Their choice! Lucky me haha), a shake (thank goodness I'm not eating other food or I'd be gaining, not losing, weight XD), and some school girl charm and happiness at seeing me. We sat on the couch and talked for a fair bit before she had to leave to run a few more errands and then go home to grade papers for the science classes she teaches, although I would have gladly spent more time with her. I love my mommy so much!! She's an amazing woman. I hope to be like her some day *loving smile* It makes me happy just thinking about her ^_^
40 minutes or so after mum left, Molly got home from Youth Group and we spent some time together, just the two of us. Then we sat on each other's beds until 10:30, video chatting and IMing people. After Molly went to bed, I continued chatting, talked a bit on the phone with Casey, and then was awake until 5am. Uuuuuugh. I just couldn't get to sleep. My pain is also steadily increasing. It has been since Thursday. I'm just hoping I can put of the major flair until after I'm back in my house. I don't want Molly and her family to have to deal with that, if at all possible. But what happens happens.
Once I had signed out of G-chat, I wrote Molly her Good Morning note - #28! Almost to 30 now! After unsuccessfully trying to sleep last night once I slipped the note under Molly's door, I watched 4 episodes of Stargate: SG-1. I'm only in the middle of season 1, but I love it already. I tend to like sci-fi character dramas ever since I grew up on Start Trek: Next Gen *chuckle*. This series is better in some ways, even! But, if you are ever thinking of trying it, watch the 1996 movie "Stargate" first. It's pretty good as well!
Anyway.
I finally got to sleep by about 5.
At least I got some kind of sleep right? I was afraid I'd have a sleepless night - just what I needed. =/
The 3 hours was nap worthy, though. So it's all good.

Now I am finishing writing this post and listening to phenomenal vocalist Lara Fabian's cd's "9" and "Adagio". I love her voice and her range! My word! She's amazing, especially at the end of this song, "Je Suis Malade".



Now I'm going to write a letter, putz around my room for a bit, and then later, head out to go visit my adopted sister Casey. Friend's duty and all that. =)

One thing that's been on my heart recently is how you should put others before yourself. Especially those you profess to care about. They deserve all you have to give, so don't hold back. Sacrifice sleep, time, money, and even your health occasionally so that they know you will be there for them, and are to be trusted. Because once they give you that deep trust, you don't want to trifle with it.
So. Do you have a friend that you haven't called and talked to in a while? Do you have someone you love and promised friendship to that you haven't "taken care of" or given a token of your affection (a letter, a flower, a gift, a call, a visit) recently?
If so, then remedy that today, somehow. I promise you that it will be worth it. Relationships are the only thing that last in this world. Why? Because love is at the foundation of those relationships.
Show love today.
I'm going to try my best to do the same.

Be Well!
-Rae Read more "Highlights: Visitations, French Vocalists and Relationships..."

Friday, October 22, 2010

Friday Funny: Ninjas


Note to weirdos in the ninja costumes: If I can see you, you're not a ninja







  • There are almost 6,000 self-professed ninjas on twitter. 0.o As blogger Erika Napoletano put it, " Holy [crap], we’re screwed. I just locked my back door. How did the world become overrun with ninjas? Why hasn’t CNN run a story on the epidemic? It’s like ninjas have moved in and killed everyone in Vail, CO and started breeding. I wonder if ninjas ski…Hmmm…"
  • I'm so ninja that I destroyed the periodic table of elements, because the only element I recognize is the element of surprise.
  • I'm so ninja I can sleep with my eyes closed
  • I'm so ninja, you can't even tell that I'm a ninja.

***

I am really really tired, and don't have too many bright ideas just flooding my poor brain. So I am just going to do the above, and not mess with this anymore. Trying to get me to say anything coherent is kind of hard at present. Still. I'm so ninja, I just have to think it and someone dies. So, consider what I can do with my mind and conveying my thoughts and intentions and the humor of this post.... *pause* heh. Nevermind *grin*
Goodnight all.
I hope I can get to sleep before 5am tonight. Lord willing.
Exhaustion.
Cometh.
...wait.
It has arrived
*blinks blearily*
I'm so ninja that...*zzzzzzz*

*laugh*
Night!
-Rae Read more "Friday Funny: Ninjas..."

Thursday, October 21, 2010

The Day of Happiness and Laughing

Hello Muselings!
It's been a day since I last posted. And that wasn't about what's been going on with me, so I thought I'd give ya'll an update. So far, things have been great. I went to therapy today and Trish said that I looked much better and happier than I have in a long time. And she asked why. My answer? Molly. I don't know how, exactly, but she seems to make me forget my pain and constant discomfort by just being around. She makes me happy. She fills a hole that I didn't know existed and that I seem to find is deeper and larger than I initially suspected. My twin, shall we say. Now, I've never had a friend like my Casey. We have a friendship that is deeper and stronger and far more lasting than pretty much all of my other friendships. Molly is different. I...yeah. I can't explain it any better than she is my twin, or my synonym. Different, but interchangeable. So similar, and so in sync that we merely compliment, not irk, each other. She's the only one who has ever gotten me to just "forget" my pain. I mean, others can distract me from it, but she seems to help me put an almost impenetrable wall around it. My body hasn't been feeling great these past few days, let me tell you. But being here makes me react less to it. A major flair in my right side is building. It will hit sometime tonight. Yet, I am not as bothered by it as I know Molly and I will be spending the night talking with each other.
Just one more way that God has blessed me with the people in my life.

A funny thing happened today as well. I was tutoring Essie, and she was tired. She'd had a bad day with tests that didn't go quite well, a broken backpack when she was running to meet me at the library, arriving a couple minutes late, and so on and so forth. Now, when we got to a few different prompts, giving words to start off her essay's "hook" and to spark a thesis statement and complete paper (I'd have to go into more detail for you to "get it", but it helps though. Really!), Essie just started cracking up. I mean, laughing. Hard. A LOT. And that got me laughing. And so it went. We tried a few different prompts unsuccessfully until we got to one about banning certain cafeteria foods that were unfit for human consumption. She just spouted off "genetically modified foods" and then wrote a complete paragraph in a little under 4 minutes. Yes. Good. But it was the ONLY prompt for hooks that we got completed. She finished a few timed paragraphs before that, but the session was more talking and trying to stay on topic without laughing hysterically every few seconds than anything else. *shakes head* Wow.
A few phrases and metal images that came from our laughter and "unique" train of thoughts sparked by the unusual prompts:
The most uncool super power in the world - that of turning into a rat tail.
The most uncool super power in the world - that of having half your body turn into a mega body builder's ripped body, and the other half staying normal and wimpy.
Essie telling run on creative stories about random people and exchange students "One rainy night in London" instead of choosing a thesis and a paper and a hook. =P

And then just laughing. And moaning and laughing at the same time. And dropping the back of an earring, disappearing with your head under the table for a few seconds while laughing, and then just laughing.
Do you see a pattern anywhere there, perchance? *grin*
....now I'm laughing again. XD

ANYWAY.

That suffices for today, well, other than the fact that I brought flowers back for Molly. She likes them. ^_^ And I'm continuing to write her good morning notes and slip them under her door at 3 in the morning when I'm still awake and she's sound asleep. Ah. The joys of writing in ink and imagining the best possible scenarios for the other person to open it and read your heartfelt words...not like I do any of that stuff in real life *looks around the room awkwardly* Dum de dum *chuckle* =P . I have a vivid imagination, especially hopped up on all my medications, exhausted beyond belief, and high on some sugar from the teas I was drinking *big grin*
Yeeeah. I'm "FUUN"!!! haha

Now to yesterday.
Wednesday was pretty uneventful. I stayed in all day *shrug* I even had the house to myself for part of the evening. My facebook status was "I'm alone in the house! AHHH! =)" But then I decided to have fun with the status and added:
Nevermind. I have my alternate personalities to keep me company

Other me: "Really? I didn't know you had alternate personalities!"

Me: "Oh yes. It runs in my family. You see, Judy, another me, likes genealogy and such things
...
Judy: "No, that's Jerome's thing. I like looking into botany."

Other me: "Oh. So you're the plant lady."

Judy: "Right"

Me: "Lets get back to...Jerome, was it? Jerome!"

Jerome: "What?!"

Judy: *puts finger in her ears* Aye!! You needn't shout! Goodness!"

Jerome: *mimics Judy*

Me: "Stop that"

Other me: "Yeah. Stop that!" *pauses and looks at me* "You are sooo weird."

Me: "An you're imaginary!"

Other Me: "Point taken"

......To be continued.


Don't I just have too much fun? *chuckle*
Jerome: "phfff. I'm not sure I would put it quite that way"
Judy: "Jerome! Be nice!"
Other me: "Haha...but he's right, you know!"
Me: "Hush!"
*Big Smile* =D

Now I'm drafting my first letter to fellow blogger (IRISH! AH!) Eleanor, and sending a few emails back and forth with another blogger friend Amy (who's blog "A Tree Grows" I really enjoy reading), who is now my newest e-pal. I have another e-pal who approached me to have someone to talk to after I reached out to the people on www.sixbillionsecrets.com. Her nickname is Bubbles, and both she and Amy are Canadians. Booyah. =). So many people! I'm flattered that all of you want to either write me, or write back and forth with me. It makes me feel special! And I like feeling special! *cheesy smile* Thank you!

The rest of the day is going to be me chilling, maybe finishing episode 12 of the awesome South Korean show "Playful kiss" (there's only one real kiss so far. It's a character comedy. And clean. I love it!), and then the fun starts!
Molly and I are having and actual "sleepover" tonight. She gets to stay in my room, or me in hers, and we get to maybe watch a movie, and/or listen to music, and then talk for hours sitting arm in arm. I'm looking forward to it immensely!
Casey, we need to do this soon, too!
My peoples! I love you! *BIG group hug*
<3

Alright. So, I'm going to post this now, go through my 33 emails (all from today...ugh), read up on other blogs, and wait for my Molly time.

Talk to you all later!
Oh. Again, any question ya'll have for me? Like, my favorite unusual colors, or my most unique article of clothing, or anything like that? I'll answer them honestly, I promise. And you can ask all the questions you like.

Ta-ta!
-Rae

PS: Can you tell I'm really happy right now? =) Read more "The Day of Happiness and Laughing..."

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

God vs. Science

This is fascinating. Read it and let me know what you think =)

***

'Let me explain the problem science has with religion.' The atheist professor of philosophy pauses before his class and then asks one of his new students to stand.

"You're a Christian, aren't you, son?"

"Yes sir," the student says.

"So you believe in God?"

"Absolutely..."

"Is God good?'

"Sure! God's good."

"Is God all-powerful? Can God do anything?"

'Yes"'

"Are you good or evil?" 

"The Bible says I'm evil."

The professor grins knowingly. "Aha! The Bible!" He considers for a moment. "Here's one for you. Let's say there's a sick person over here  and you can cure him. You can do it. Would you help him? Would you try?"

"Yes sir, I would."

"So you're good...!"

"I wouldn't say that"

"But why not say that? You'd help a sick and maimed person if you could. Most of us would if we could. But God doesn't"

The student does not answer, so the professor continues. "He doesn't, does he? My brother was a Christian who died of cancer, even though he prayed to Jesus to heal him. How is this Jesus good? Can you answer that one?"

The student remains silent. "No, you can't, can you?" the professor says. He takes a sip of water from a glass on his desk to give the student time to relax. "Let's start again, young fella. Is God good?"

"Er...yes," the student says.

"Is Satan good?"

The student doesn't hesitate on this one. "No."

"Then where does Satan come from?"

The student falters. "From God"

"That's right. God made Satan, didn't he? Tell me, son. Is there evil in this world?"

"Yes, sir"

"Evil's everywhere, isn't it? And God did make everything, correct?"

"Yes"

"So who created evil?" The professor continued, "If God created everything, then God created evil, since evil exists, and according to the principle that our works define who we are, then God is evil."

Again, the student has no answer. "Is there sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things, do they exist in this world?"

The student squirms on his feet. "Yes"

"So who created them?"

The student does not answer again, so the professor repeats his questions. "Who created them?" There is still no answer. Suddenly the lecturer breaks away to pace in front of the classroom. The class is mesmerized. "Tell me," he continues onto another student. "Do you believe in Jesus Christ, son?"

The student's voice betrays him and cracks. "Yes, professor, I do."

The old man stops pacing. "Science says you have five senses you use to identify and observe the world around you. Have you ever seen Jesus?"

"No sir. I've never seen Him."

"Then tell us if you've ever heard your Jesus"

"No, sir, I have not"

"Have you ever felt your Jesus, tasted your Jesus or smelled your Jesus? Have you ever had any sensory perception of Jesus Christ, or God for that matter?"

"No, sir, I'm afraid I haven't."

"Yet you still believe in him?"

"Yes"

"According to the rules of empirical, testable, demonstrable protocol, science says your God doesn't exist... What do you say to that, son?"

"Nothing" the student replies... "I only have my faith."

"Yes, faith" the professor repeats. "And that is the problem science has with God. There is no evidence, only Faith."

The student stands quietly for a moment, before asking a question of HIS own. "Professor, is there such thing as heat?"

"Yes"

"And is there such thing as cold"

"Yes, son, there's cold too."

"No sir, there isn't."

The professor turns to face the student, obviously interested. The room suddenly becomes very quiet. The student begins to explain. "You can have lots of heat, even more heat, super-heat, mega-heat, unlimited heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat, but we don't have anything called 'cold'. We can hit down to 458 degrees below zero, which is no heat, but we can't go any further after that. There is no such thing as cold; otherwise we would be able to go colder than the lowest -458 degrees. Every body or object is susceptible to study when it has or transmits energy, and heat is what makes a body or matter have or transmit energy. Absolute zero (-458 degree F) is the total absence of heat. You see, sire cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat we can measure in thermal units because heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the absence of it."

Silence across the room. A pen drops somewhere in the classroom, sounding like a hammer.

"What about darkness professor. Is there such thing as darkness?"

"Yes" the professor replies without hesitation. "What is night if it isn't darkness?"

"You're wrong again sir. Darkness is not something; it is the absence of something. You can have low light, normal light, bright light, flashing light, but if you have no light constantly you have nothing and it's called darkness, isn't it? That's the meaning we use to define the word. In reality, darkness isn't. If it were, you would be able to make darkness darker, wouldn't you?"

The professor begins to smile at the student in front of him. "This will be a good semester. So what point are you making young man?"

"Yes, professor. My point is , your philosophical premise is flawed to start with, and so your conclusion must also be flawed."

The professor's face cannot hide his surprise this time. "Flawed? Can you explain how?"

"You are working on the premise of duality," the student explains..."You argue that there is life and then there's death; a good God and a bad God. You are viewing the concept of God as something finite, something we can measure. Sir science can't even explain a thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. To view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive thing. Death is not the opposite of life, just the absence of it. Now tell me, professor, do you teach your students that they evolved from a monkey?"

" If you are referring to the natural evolutionary process, young man, yes, of course I do."

"Have you ever observed evolution with your own eyes, sir?"

The professor begins to shake his head, still smiling, as he realizes where the argument is going. A very good semester, indeed.

"Since no one has ever observed the process of evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavor, are you not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you now not a scientist, but a preacher?"

The class is in uproar. The student remains silent until the commotion has subsided. "To continue the point you were making earlier to the other student, let me give you an example of what I mean." The student looks around the room. "Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen the professor's brain?" The class breaks into laughter. "Is there anyone here who has every heard the professor's brain, felt the professor's brain, touched or smelt the professor's brain? No one appears to have done so. So, according to the established rules of empirical, stable, demonstrable protocol, science says that you have no brain, with all due respect, sir. So if science says you have no brain, how can we trust your lectures, sir?"

Now the room is silent. The professor just stares at the student, his face unreadable. Finally, after what seems an eternity, the old man answers. "I guess you'll have to take them on faith."

"Now, you accept that there is faith, and, in fact, faith exists with life." the student continues. "Now, sir, is there such a thing as evil?" Now uncertain, the professor responds, "Of course, there is. We see it everyday. It is in the daily example of man's inhumanity to man. It is in the multitude of crime and violence everywhere in the world. These manifestations are nothing else but evil"

To this the student replied, "Evil does not exist sir, or at least it does not exist unto itself. Evil is simply the absence of God. It is just like darkness and cold, a word that man has created to describe the absence of God. God did not create evil. Evil is the result of what happens when man does not have God's love present in his heart. It's like the cold that comes when there is no heat or the darkness that comes when there is no light."

THE PROFESSOR SAT DOWN...
Note: The student was Albert Einstein. Einstein wrote a book titled "God vs. Science" in 1921

***

So, what did you all think about that? I love this piece. It's a favorite of mine. I believe in God. Unswervingly. Without a doubt. He is my creator, and the creator of an ordered universe. Essentially, He is the creator of science.

What do you believe?

Be Well!
-Re Read more "God vs. Science..."

Just Because...

I feel like posting this morning at almost 3:40 just because. No real reason, other than I can't sleep. It's rare that I can't sleep because my mind is racing and my body just won't shut down. Normally, it's just because of pain. But here I am, still wide awake and bug eyed  a dark room with a bright computer. That's a recipe for...heck.....I don't know. I can't really cook =P

I've had over 750 hits on my blog this month. Isn't that cool? I'm still popular with the peoples! And that means you, people! Yes, You!
Ok, well, not you, but YOU. Yeah. You're the one.
Don't you just love it when your friends do that to you and another person? I think it's quite funny under the right circumstances. Other times, the sheer fact that they forgot your name or how to be specific drives me nuts.
A (mild) pet peeve of the week, shall we say?

Right. I've got my "Good Morning" messages off, some other things dealt with and checked off my list of "To-Do's", and this short, random post written and published. Maybe sleep will come now.

Night ya'll!
-Rae

PS: I don't normally do this at ALL - writing blog posts like this. But I guess there's always a first for everything, right? I just hope I don't come back in the morning and think "What the heck?!" XD hahaha
Yayness for me and my randomness! Booyah, baby! ^_^ Read more "Just Because......"

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Tuesday: People People!

So, today I woke up quite tired. I hadn't gotten much sleep. Maybe 4, or even a more slim possibility of 5 hours. But still. It was sleep. I woke up, noticed it was rainy again (Oh Goody!!), lay in bed for two or three minutes, then got up and took a shower. A hello hug for Molly, and then we were both sitting at the kitchen table, me drinking my breakfast, and Molly eating hers. A quick grading period where I graded the paper I owed my writing student today, and then I left for the Library. Sadly, I was a couple of minutes late. But that's ok. We got in our hour of teaching.
But. I have something exciting to tell you all!
21 MINUTES!!!
Read more "Tuesday: People People!..."

Monday, October 18, 2010

Monday: The First Day with My New Family

Mediation music playing in the background, limeade in a glass, my cactus, "Mr. Smooth", is sitting and seemingly staring at me for who knows what reason, and I'm back home from running errands with a smile on my face. And one of the best parts? It rained today!!! Welcome to My Marvelous Monday!

I actually got a bit of sleep last night, surprisingly enough. 1:30 to 4:30, 4:50 or so to 6:00, 6:00 to 8:00, and 8:00 to 10:00. So, it was closer to 2 hour shifts, or a number of consecutive two hour naps. Still. It was sleep of some form, right?

I got up at 10, gave molly a good morning hug, went to the kitchen and drank my morning V8, talked for an hour with Mrs. Crocker, and then went back to my room for some internet time =)
I just came across a new movie that I SOO want to see. As some of you know, I love Shakespeare. Well, I also really enjoy the movie Across the Universe. And director Julie Taymore has written the script for a new version of Shakespeare's last work, The Tempest!! Prospero is now a woman, Prospera, and it seems that both Actress Helen Mirren (A major classic and Shakespeare advocate herself) and Julie Taymore had the same idea and just happened to get into a conversation about The Tempest.
It's coming out December 10th, 2010. And I. Am. Going. To. See. This. Movie.
Health permitting. But I really really want to see it. Visually, it looks soooo very unique and awesome, with lots of great actors and killer special effects coupled with Shakespeare's timeless words. And did I mention Helen Mirren?! One of the world's best actresses, in my opinion. Also, I'm okay with them changing things around (I'm normally against such things!), as there have been numerous plays and movies of The Tempest. But this should be an epic retelling. Check it out!
"The Tempest (2010)" Watch the trailer too :P Please?

Okay. So, I discovered The Tempest while surfing through some sites and blogs this morning. Then, this afternoon, I went shopping, stopping in at Michael's, Hobby Lobby, Marsh, and Whole Foods. =) YAY!
I actually ran into my mum at the Marsh, and it was quite funny. She had been out of her tea for 24 hours what with the move and everything. She was in withdrawal, and was pretty funny when she mentioned it, and then thought that they didn't carry her brand at that store. XD it makes me laugh! *chuckle*
Then I got back to the house, dealt with my groceries, and tried to lay down for a few minutes until Molly and her Mum got back from Drama class. No sleep for me, it seems. So, I was awake and reading/writing a bit when they got back.

From then on it was mostly talking, laughing, and friends. Molly's friend Laura came over (A friend of mine too :D). We had lots of fun, worked unsuccessfully to stop laughing and keep quiet, and then walked in the rain (RAIN!!) when Molly and I walked Laura back to her house. Molly's oldest brother, Bryce, also stopped by for a few minutes. Altogether, it was quite a lovely evening, and a good, slightly productive day *grin*
Now I just have to actually sleep tonight, as I have to get up at 9 tomorrow. Late for most of you, yes. But most of you don't stay up till 4 or not sleep at all quite regularly, need at least 8 hours (doctors orders), and have numerous medical conditions. So, 9 may be a bit of hardship *deep sigh* Oh well. I'll survive. I always do. I have to finish some grading and such for my tutoring/teaching tomorrow from 10:30 to 11:30. Then I get to have lunch/drinks with my mommy *contented smile*. After that, I go home again, home again, jiggity jig. A bit of a rest, and then Molly and I will keep our weekly phone date of 3:30. Yes. Even though we now live in the same house. It's a date! We can't break it! =D haha Who knows what will happen later. I'll let you know what transpires.

For now, I will try to sleep. If I can't, I'll probably watch an episode of SG-1 or one of the two newest episodes of the South Korean Show "Playful Kiss". I love that show ^_^
Anyway.
I hope you all had a good day, and get some rest! I will dream about my new family. And thankfully, it will all be good. I'm quite blessed to have a sister in Molly. Quite blessed, and I won't forget it. Ever. And you all, I wish you lived around here. Then you could meet her too. A Molly fanclub? I think so! =D

Be Well!
-Rae, the Happy One Read more "Monday: The First Day with My New Family..."

Sunday, October 17, 2010

Moving #3: Settling

 So, Here I am.
At the Crockers
Sitting in bed.
Typing on my computer named George.
Yes.
George.
The Crocker's fish is also named George.
George is a good name.
And no, I'm not drugged.
The pain killers haven't quite kicked in yet XD.
Anyway.
My family travels like gypsies. Or Basket Cases. You may call us what you will, as long as it includes crazy and/or nomadic "Carry anything you need to survive for years". You see, we carry everything with us when we go, because you never know what you might need. We over-pack and often cause ourselves undue stress and grief because of it, yet are always the life savers when other people need things. When we go camping, my family packs our car full to the brim with the kid's stuff on their laps, and our trailer full to bursting. Tents, suitcases upon suitcases, mini grills, griddles, stoves and the like, plus an extensive medical kit and accoutrement make up part of it. But then you have the cool stuff, like guns for the shooting range, compasses, night vision goggles, fold out tables (Yes. It's "cool". It's so you don't have to use benches...try sitting at one with an unknown wasp nest nestled underneath. THAT'LL send you to the foldable tables, let me tell ya!), fishing supplies, instruments ranging from 6 and 12 string acoustics to small drums to triangles to many other rhythm stuffs, and on and on. We have fun, especially, when we have 6 to 10 large families camping right next to each other, singing songs around the campfire, my dad (and sometimes another musician) playing guitar and all the young kids playing the other instruments from our box. Getting lost while hiking. Almost getting stuck in caves. And every person eventually coming to our campsite to get some kind of medical supply to help. It's only when we have to leave that we again question the decision to take so much freakin stuff!!!!! AHH!!!

All that to illustrate our propensity to pack a Loooot.... "Just in case". Camping trips are usually less than a week. More like a weekend. So. Think bout that. A full car and a full trailer for a weekend. Now. Think about us emptying our house (also filled with the same "just in case" tendencies) for the workmen coming in Monday morning, along with school supplies, food, and clothing for TWO WEEKS. So, multiply the camping experience by 10 fold, and you have the general atmosphere of gathering and stuffing and hauling that's gone on the past two days. My Honda Civic was stuffed with my suitcases, bags and such. Then we had two minivans for the 5 of them, plus the stuffed trailer. And we had already made a trip up to the "house" with another full minivan (with only two people in it this time....Yes. THAT full).
Wow.
We might as well live in that house for a year...oh wait. We didn't pack enough for all the things that could happen in a year! Oh my goodness!!!! *grin* It's a family thing. And people make fun of us for. Like when I go to Myrtle Beach or Awana Camp: "Wow! You packed ALL that? You're nuts!" But who do they come to when they need something? I pack books for answering their questions, writing tools for them to write home, extra toothpastes and cover up and medicines when they run out or forget. I have extra journals and notebooks for them to take notes if they forget. I pack more shirts and pants than absolutely necessary, and I even have to loan them out occasionally because someone was in an emergency. So will I change my habits? I don't think so.
Even looking around at the room that I have truly "made my own", and thinking about how in the world I will find a way to pack everything again and remember everything, I don't regret my decision for "extravagance". I will handle it in stride. And enjoy every pleasurable thing that I brought just for the heck of it. The top of what was a clear dresser now has a floral patterned scarf opened up to act as a lovely covering for it. My cactus, Mr. Smooth, is sitting next to a lamp. My nice green and brown pattered box (photo boxes from the craft stores converted into basic storage for anything! They're awesome room accents!) with all my medicines hides them nicely and adds to the decor. Next to that is a carved wood floral box that Casey just bought me at the Renaissance Faire, with a picture sitting on top of it of the two of us and poem she wrote about me sitting.
On the desk are a number of books, most so that I can take quotes and ideas for Musing's posts or letters, plus my large leather and wood box of writing supplies, books for tutoring, a handmade Turkish Mortar and Pestle for an accent and to hold my two green and maroon feather pens, a picture of me and my littlest brother Michael, a small box with my metal nib pens, and a couple note card boxes. Sound like I "made myself at home"?
You betcha!

So, right now I'm listening to BBC 1's Live Lounge volumes 1-3 that I got today because of Eleanor Roscuro's suggestion on Moving #2: Stuffing. I have a pore cleansing pad stuck to my nose, a bottle of water next to my bed, and the music of Florence and the Machine, Paramore, Leeland and Downhere playing in my head. I'm also thinking about watching an episode of SG-1 and eating some ice cream, since sleep is not coming to me yet. But best of all is one phrase, and you what that is? Life is good.
I'm happy.
I'm free.
I'm moved.
And I'm home.

Booyah.

Be Well!
-Rae Read more "Moving #3: Settling..."

Moving #2: Stuffing

My word. I am just realizing how much I actually have to stuff into one suitcase and two to three other bags 0.o
Seriously. It's a lot. But, then again, I'm lucky I have most of my music on my computer, or it would be a lot more =P You see, I listen to a ton of music. I did even before I was home/room/bed bound for weeks on end. But these days, as I can't read all that much, leave the house much, etc...etc..., I listen to music almost non-stop. I have to have my silent times, yes. But music always comes on in a couple hours - max. I also have a massive music collection. My sister recently had to wipe her Ipod due to some software issues, and because we recently had to wipe her main computer due to a virus (along with the music on it), she was afraid that she had lost hundreds of dollars worth of her music. Well, here I come, toting my laptop, and we spend two hours going through some of my music (she's not interested in more than half of the stuff I have =P). It seems that I have full cd's of her favorite artists, whereas she only had a few songs here and there. I officially became her person of the week *chuckle*, as I supplied her with 8 cd's to take with her to the temporary housing to put back on her ipod, and to listen to on her boombox. Her smile lasted for hours afterwords. It was awesome.

Now, I don't know how many hundreds, probably thousands of dollars worth of music I have. I don't want to count and do all the research required to figure that you. You know why?
Probably because I have 90GB of music. 90! That's a lot, methinks =P And I'm always on the hunt for more. ALWAYS. So, check back with me a few days after Christmas, and I may have 20 or more GB of new music *chuckle*
ANYHOO.

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Moving #1: Packing

So, Saturday, the Wells family came over to our house to help move all our furniture, box up all the plates, gasses, and everything else in our cupboards, empty drawers, take down pictures and paintings, shift bookcases, etc...to prepare for the house makeover commencing Monday morning. Me? Well, I was down for the count for most of the day. My energy is almost nill at this point, so the stairs are a calculated effort. But, I did manage to make a nice long...long...slightly long list of the things I need to pack for the two+ weeks we will be out of the house.
I will be staying with with some family friends, the Crockers. Molly's family. My synonym. My sister. My friend. Or Blondie if you prefer*grin*. It should be fun =) I'm looking forward to staying with her, although it will be quite rough on me to be out of my house, around other people, and on a different schedule. I'm just praying that I survive physically. Hear that, God? Yes, thank you! ^_^

Now I'm left with actually doing the packing. *chuckle* The clothes are sitting on standby. The medications are lined up on my headboard. My suitcase and various bags are open and awaiting their allotted accoutrement.
So, I will turn up my Fiona Apple, Imogen Heap, Florence + the Machine, and maybe even some Electric Light Orchestra while I try and do something truly productive.

Oh! And since my old-old phone had been acting up as of late, and my mum wants reliable communication with me, her sick daughter, living at someone else's house for two weeks, I had my purple Motorola Rival slider phone activated. Yay! That makes me happy too. A new place of residence. A "new" phone. A new routine. A new treatment plan. And, eventually, "new" house. Maybe we can throw in a few new and improved diagnosis: as in, "you're not really as sick as we told you! You were just in a double blind psychological test that you passed admirably! You'll be well by the end of the week!" Or maybe not. But hey! I can dream! And I can make even government funded, double blind, illegal psych "the world is your laboratory" testing sound positive and desirable! XD haha

Okay. So I had better get to packing, or this post will really be just a procrastination tool. I have trouble doing things before the absolute, final deadline. And that deadline is doing it all Sunday afternoon =P Hey! Maybe I'll be in a "new" anti-Major Procrastinator mood!...or not. *laugh*

I'll update you guys Sunday afternoon as to how the packing is truly coming.
I may even make a major effort to go to church tomorrow...but that may mess up my first two days in a new environment, which would not be good. I'll think and pray about that one.

So. Who's seen the newest Fringe episode: "Do Shapeshifters Dream of Electric Sheep?"?

Be Well!
-Rae Read more "Moving #1: Packing..."

Saturday, October 16, 2010

Saturday Sounds: Florence + the Machine

What do you think of when you hear the term "Alternative music"? For me, artists with such varied music as She & Him, Jon Foreman, Norah Jones, Bowling for Soup, Bjork, and even the Avett Brothers come to mind. Alternative lies somewhere between Indie (Independent), Folk, Rock, Soul, and the raw, unpolished and engaging sounds of fringe pop. In rare cases, it can even lie in the realm of metal, but it is then never called simply "alternative". You see, the label "Alternative" isn't usually left as just "Alternative", although it is becoming more common these days as bands strive to be out of the basic categories of Rock, R&B, Blues, Pop, Metal, etc...
Usually you will her such labels as "Alternative Rock", "Alternative Soul", "Alternative Folk", and so on. It describes the fringe, independent, and more artistic and eclectic bands that have broken out of conventional molds.
The group Florence + the Machine (i.e. Florence and the Machine) is closer to a strict "Alternative" label, but if I had to classify them, I would say they are a cross between Alternative Rock and Soul with a dash of Indie playfulness added to the mix. Their lyrics often deal in metaphors and ideas, not just strictly the words being sung. Interpretation is often needed. For example, the song "My Boy Builds Coffins" goes:
"My boy builds coffins for the rich and the poor
Kings and queens them all knocked on his door
Beggars and liars, gypsies and thieves
They all come to him 'cause he's so eager to please

My boy builds coffins he makes them all day
But it's not just for work and it isn't for play
He's made one for himself
One for me too
One of these days he'll make one for you"


In this song, they work to impress upon the listener the finite amount of time we all have. Whether we are a King or Queen or the poorest and most destitute of thieves and beggars, we all die. Later, Florence Welch, lead singer and part of the band's namesake, sings "He crafts everyone with love and with care; Then its thrown in the ground, it just isn't fair", pointing out how often we as humans put work into things that will only end in death, that we can only take with us to the grave and no further. How death is not fair. How it's not natural, but it's inevitable.
To me, that sounds like a deep insight into mankind, and something most mainstream artists wouldn't even touch. Can you imagine Bieber, Ke$ha, Timberlake, etc... talking about death and mortality in such metaphors, stories, words, and depth? I can't.

But for Florence + the Machine, it works. So, today I am dedicating an entire post to them and their unique, catchy, and deep songs. My favorites are "Dog Days are Over", "Rabbit Heart" (which references Alice and Wonderland and the story of King Midas), "Drumming" (Which uses the ideas of heaven and hell as extremes of happiness and torture in more literal terms), and "Bird Song".

I must make a note about Bird Song. Florence sings how a bird came around, singing for all the neighbors to hear about how she had changed, and it is implied, compromised herself, her dreams, her morals, to get to where she currently was. She lures the bird inside and kills it, trying to silence the song of the past and the sting of her conscience. But what happens is that as a result of her actions, she starts singing the song, the bird's fateful words coming from her own mouth. Ironic justice, don't you think? A tale of how our past will catch up to us, and our choices will inevitably come to light, often by our own doing. Again, depth and insight not often found in many of today's cookie-cutter musicians. To top it all off you have Florence's amazing voice, and her band's unique, engaging, fun, and quirkily compelling music.

If you couldn't tell, I really enjoy their music. There are a few songs of their that I don't listen to, one because of the content (Girl with One Eye, not included in the playlist for today), but overall, I highly recommend Florence + the Machine. Take a listen and let me know what you think of them! And please, listen to each song fully. There are often surprises or musical shifts halfway to 2/3s of the way through, as often seen in Indie music.

And so I present for your listening pleasure "Florence + the Machine"



Be Well!
-Rae Read more "Saturday Sounds: Florence + the Machine..."

Friday, October 15, 2010

Friday Funny: Epic Fail

Who here likes Epic Fails?
*Jumps up and down, waving hand over and over*
MEEEE!!!
Yes. I think they are hilarious. And a sad testament to humanity *chuckle*
But why not get a laugh here and there at mankind's stupidity? It's FUNNY! Heck, my brother and I can spend hours together flipping through pictures on demotivational and epic fail sites. It's quite a good time all around. And today I will share some of the ones I find most funny, ironic, and enjoyable.

I hope you smile at least once *grin*
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Thursday, October 14, 2010

Breakdowns and Surrenders

I had a breakdown tonight. The sobs. The crying out for relief. The curling up in a ball, trying to get over the emotional turmoil of the day (as today's results were less than favorable) and severe physical pain. It feels like I'm crying for an answer, waiting for a reply that will never come...a reply to a question that will forever be unanswered.
So, as I often do when happy, sad, depressed, or bored, I listened to music. The songs played tonight though were "It's going to be alright" "Golden" "On my own", etc... Then the song "Crazy Beautiful" started playing. I was going to change the song to something a bit more fitting for my present state of mind when a few words stuck out to me. Chasen's lyrics, sung with his boyish charm, go "...the inside is beautiful, but the outside we want to change....the outside we want to change"
In essence, what is in our heart, mind, and soul is what counts, but instead we focus on the external - the physical. I don't have to have a healthy body to have a healthy mind, heart, and soul. They don't have to go hand in hand. I can be complete and whole and happy without healthy being added to the mix.
I hadn't thought of that phrase in such terms before, so it was a nice reminder of what I already knew, but had pushed to the back of my mind.
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Soap Opera Thursday: Who poisoned who?

I kind of feel like I'm in a terrible, typical soap opera. I keep finding "illegitimate" children (Illnesses) that no one knew about, myself included, but are a product of choices I unwittingly made....like environment, pushing myself too far, exposing myself to contagions, etc...
I have my "lovers", i.e., doctors, who each know "secrets" about me, stay with me for a while, but go by the wayside or in the dump when I'm "done with them", or are tired of the ways things were progressing. Like yesterday. We didn't even go to the final consultation with one of my pain specialists, Dr. Srini, who did the two bilateral shoulder muscle and shoulder cap cortisol shots. My mum just called, thanked him for his time and expertise, told him about my negative reactions to the shots, and that we would be seeking other pain alternatives--elsewhere. *shrug*
Poor guy.
*sigh*
Anyway.
Where was I....Soap opera...yes. Well, I will stop with that analogy here: Most of the twists and turns are "for the worse".
And here is a continuation of why that is true....
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Wednesday, October 13, 2010

Poetry: The Tree House

I guess looking through my old poems sparked the poet within me. For, as I sat looking out my open window at the rain pouring down, I thought about writing another poem, this one about rain. Other than that, I didn't plan it. The story just came out. I'm looking down at the notebook I penned it in, and watching as small raindrops light on its pages. Quite fitting, don't you think?
So here it is, my newest poem. It's called "The Tree House"

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The Tree House
By Rae Hitchings

See the dark clouds?
Watch them gather and build
See the darkness up high
Grow and rapidly thrill

The roiling and boiling
Of the darkening sky
The howling and whistling
Of wind on the fly

A storm approaches
And now reigns fierce
A small building cowers
Fraught through with great fear

Two eyes of deep green
Peep from a tight corner
They search for some beauty
But find only horror

She stifles a sob
A tear, smooth, sliding down
She curls up in a ball
Her eyes masking a frown

A great boom and a crash!
The house, it shakes, poor
The windows, they rattle
The boards creak, unsure

Bravely up, stands the girl,
Her hands tightened in fists
Bravely forward, she strikes
Her feet shuffle leaf bits

“My tree house!” she shouts
Little face creased in anger
“My house is my own!
Don’t touch it, you thunder!”

A ribbon of light comes
Clouds parting a moment
A smile, it seems like
From heaven up yonder

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Tuesday, October 12, 2010

Poetry: Grandeur Of Nature

 Hello Muselings! Here's another poem for you. This one is about *wait for it...* Nature! Hence, the name :P Your critiques and comments are enjoyed, but if you just say "I don't like it" or "I like it" that's fine too =)

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Grandeur of Nature
by Rae Hitchings

Earth of whites and blues and greens
And water deep and shimmering serene
Rocks the hue of sunset tan
The world around--compare none can

The world in light and dark profound
The seas of depth and skies surround
The birds in flight with wings unfurled
Clouds around all earth have swirled

A Bright! A Light! White lightning fierce
A Roll! A Drum! Thunder’s clash doth pierce!
The storm, it rages low with tears
The sky is dark from there to here

A softness light of wandering air
A breeze is flitting without a care
A leaf of bronze drifts loftily
With grass of green and May lily

The earth of blues and greens galore
The water of bright, clear shimmering Yore
The rocks so grand are standing tall
In reverence and in awe of all!

***

Be Well!
-Rae Read more "Poetry: Grandeur Of Nature..."

Monday, October 11, 2010

Poetry: Friends

Some of you asked to see some of the poems I have written. I haven't written very many, but this one, "Friends", is very special. I wrote it for my friend Casey in a time of trial. Now it is a symbol of how I view friendship, and my approach to the people I call my friends. I have been very blessed to have such loving and dedicated friends. Lately, God has blessed me far beyond measure, and my cup is overflowing. My hope is that this poem will give you all just a taste of that....

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"Friends"
By Rae Hitchings

The wispy waves of o'er
In time gone back to first
Through trials, famine, loss
The steadfast ones stand firm

Their piercing eyes of depth
Their keen true hearts of gold
Beat one with mine and yours
With us through highs and lows

As time winds forw'ds again
The life we live proceeds
Unending trials faced
Yet all with someone sees

We need them, yes, yet are them.
We want, yet give ourselves
Their names we all know well
And will forevermore

For such is our life time
To give each other hope
And through all tears and hurts
They give us hands to hold

They fight and fight for our sake's worth
Through fiery bitter tears
They labor quiet, in the dark
To show how much they feel

These people as we know,
Present themselves to hear
Our hurts our wants, to dry our tears
They wish to hear our fears

Through everything aboundeth
An ever present force
A mighty hold does bind us
That which ensnares our hearts

I speak of our own friends
These people Oh so dear
We have a claim on them
As both have tread the years

Togetherness now binds us
Without them we are lost
Through time we do so wander
Yet friends, sweet friends are ours.

***

Be Well!
-Re Read more "Poetry: Friends..."

Again?

Right. So I didn't update yesterday. I apologize. Figuring out our schedules and logistics for when we move out of our house on Saturday are taking up some time. But other than that, there's been no major developments.
The doctors are still just trying to get some some kind of relief. The IV therapy doesn't seem to be doing anything at present, so we're going to back off to once a week.

My results for the Heavy Metal Poisoning test came back, but here's the odd part. The nurse called to let us know they were in, but she wouldn't say what they were over the phone. Just that there was something abnormal. Dr. Fetters moved up our appointment with him by two weeks because he wanted to see us THIS week (it's unusual for him to dictate a new appointment), and he has been doing a lot of talking with the head of the testing facility that handled my samples and sent him the results. Supposedly the head doctor there is very adept at coming up with specific medicine regimes for the patient based on their results. But we are a bit worried that our nurse couldn't even tell us if I had the poisoning or not.
Abnormal just doesn't satisfy us, you know?

I still can't eat, although I can do the occasional broth/soup (without any chunks in it), ice cream, and shake. It nice to have that variety once in a while. I can also tell that I'm now "addicted" to the pain killer Narco....I feel terrible (more than normal) and sick to my stomach if I don't take it. Detox is going to be awful =/

Still. Even though things are not going my way medically, I have loving friends and family. Michael has given me numerous hugs today, and will shout my name, dashing to my side, whenever he hasn't seen me in a while. It's rare to see so much pure love and joy on a child's face. I am so very blessed =)

Tomorrow (Tuesday), a man will be coming to test the air quality of our house. The reason we are having the kitchen torn out is because of mold growth, and my mum is wondering if that mold is a potential aggravator of my symptoms. So I have to be out of my room by 8 tomorrow to let him test. Thankfully, it will only take a few minutes. I don't expect the mold to be a factor, but I could be wrong.

While I've been bedridden, I've been watching the show Fringe. I watched the first two seasons over the past two weeks, and just watched the latest aired episode from season 3 today. It is AMAZING. I love that show.  Some of you know that I really enjoy X-Files. I mean really-really. I've seen all 9 seasons, watched special features, etc... etc...
Well, Fringe is a cross between X-Files, the Twilight Zone, and the alternate universe stuff from Stargate (show and movie). If you like the weird and the freaky with compelling characters and a story that progresses fast, intricately, and interestingly, then try Fringe. The first few episodes are kind of gross, I must admit. But if you get past that, it's one heck of a show. I'm so glad I tried it, as Fringe is now one of my all-time favorites. For those of you who have seen it, what do you think?

Alright. I would type more, but I have a serious headache. Bed and sleep sound really good right now. I haven't been sleeping much, so I hope sleep is an option. I'll try to keep you updated, hopefully on some of the things I have been learning and realizing as of late. God hasn't been silent, and neither have the circumstances that I have been forced into, and I would like to share it with you all.

I'll say a prayer for all of you readers tonight, and hope that you all find the next few days to be productive, and enlightening. And remember. Give someone an unexpected smile, hug, or compliment. You never know. You could make their day.

Be Well!
-Rae Read more "Again?..."

Sunday, October 10, 2010

Scheduling

Hello my Muselings!
So, today I feel like I should set up some basic parameters for this blog, based on my health. You see, I had originally planned the blog to go something like this:

Sunday = Health in Focus
Monday = Updates/Thoughts (U/T)
Tuesday = U/T
Wednesday = U/T
Thursday = Deep Thinkers (Impactful Men and Women and what we can learn from their lives, works and examples)
Friday = Friday Funnies
Saturday = Saturday Sounds
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Saturday, October 9, 2010

Saturday Sounds: The Village Soundtrack

It's Saturday!
That means today is "Saturday Sounds", and I've got a treat for you: The complete Village Soundtrack.
Now, this movie is one of M. Night Shyamalan's best films, in my opinion. Although He is more well known for his movies The Sixth Sense and Signs, The Village combines all the elements that define a high quality Shyalmalan movie: suspense, an "unforseen" twist, moral questions, and moving characters.
Let me point at that the characters are created more from camera angles,visual storytelling and music than their amount of spoken lines. Some of the most compelling characters on screen, such as Sigourney Weaver's "Alice Hunt", have very few lines and scenes.

But a majority of the artfulness in telling this story is through the music. James Newton Howard (composer for such movies as Batman Begins and The Dark Night, King Kong, Pretty Woman, The Fugitive, Blood Diamond, and Shyamalan's other films, including The Last Airbender, Lady in the Water, and Unbreakable) uses minimalistic techniques for The Village's score, and it does surprisingly well. The lead instrument is the violin, and it carries the majority of the melody. The orchestra more often backs it up than overshadows it. Strings are predominant, although drums and wind instruments are utilized heavily and masterfully in the tense, suspenseful scenes. There are subtle changes and variations of the main theme, with far fewer shifts from the main melody in the musical composition as a whole than many other soundtracks you will listen to. Again, the minimalist theme.
And it all works.
Below is the complete soundtrack. Let me know what you think about it! If you couldn't already tell, I love this album. And the movie, but the music especially!
I. Absolutely. Love. It.
Period. It is so artistically and skillfully done that it makes me sit in quiet awe every time I listen.
So, get yourself ready for the  moving, deceivingly simplistic, and noteworthy sounds of The Village's Score.




Be Well!
-Rae

NOTE: This movie, although pegged as a "horror" film by people who have only seen the trailer, are being decieved. It is NOT a horror film. It is a suspenseful character drama, and one I would recommend to Anyone, whether they like "scary" films or not. It's awesome, and will leave you thinking at the end.
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Friday, October 8, 2010

Friday Funny: Misadventures of a Would-Be Detective

Simply put, I am often quite strange. I work to think like a detective, journalist, psychologist, you name it. I often find myself way over analyzing things. But yesterday, I did a bit more than that, all in fun of course *grinning*

You see, I was on my way home from teaching. And, as any good driver does, I was gawking....just looking around at the world flashing by. as I was sitting at a light near College Avenue, I saw this black van stopped next to me, even it's windows darkened. So, me being so detective minded and having watched way too many cop shows, I decided to follow that truck, and see where it was going.
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Wednesday, October 6, 2010

Life and Love

Hooray! I actually was able to sleep last night!
That's good news! My conditions gets more acute, painful and erratic when I don't sleep, which is what happened two nights ago.
I've stayed holed up in my room sleeping, resting, and chilling, for the majority of the day, and it seems that that's what my body needed. Still. I did conduct a few forays into the rest of the house, played some with my brother Michael, and admired the supercharched mustang my dad just bought Matt for his first car. It's a beauty, let me tell ya!

Tomorrow I'm having another IV therapy, and then I tutor in the afternoon. Friday I'm hoping to go over and see Molly, maybe even going to a Sacred Irish concert with her, where the choir perform old irish hymns. It's Irish. It's a concert. And it's with my beautiful Molly. So what's not to like? =D
I'm just hoping I feel well enough to go. So you can pray about that for me!

*Note: Bits of randomness are to follow =P
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Tuesday, October 5, 2010

Guyer Institute of Molecular Medicine and other such things...

Today is going to be a short update (I think =P), as very little has gone on since Sunday.
As you know, I wasn't doing well health wise, and I'm still not improved at all.
But I did have another IV therapy Monday afternoon, and will be having a second on Thursday morning. This is to be the routine for the next few weeks (2 per week), unless we head to the Ohio medical clinic soon. Dr. Guyer, the fibro/pain/IV therapy specialist, has a "second in command" if you will, his right hand man, Dr. Omgod (Yes..OMG XD). Dr. Omgod has insisted that only He and Dr. Guyer's head nurse will handle my therapies until Dr. Guyer himself can see me. Dr. Omgod is an MD, and helps run the very successful, internationally known medical practice that is Guyer Institute of Molecular Medicine.
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Sunday, October 3, 2010

Sunday, and more bad news

Hello everyone.
It seems that as I am getting worse physically, and am not sure how long I can continue without further medical assistance, that I'm having to take it very easy. Emphasis on "very". I'm afraid that means that I won't be doing any more research for today's Health in Focus, so that's going to have to wait at least another week. I apologize.
As I described in my facebook status very briefly, I feel like my chest is being ripped in two, a spike is stuck from my chest through to my spine, I can't walk very well, or very far, I'm dizzy, am losing my balance and ability to walk straight, have no energy, and have a fluctuating internal body temperature, heart rate, and mental coherence. I'm on 10mgs of the strongest narcotic on the market every four hours, and that, plus my 4 other pain killers, are only dulling the pain enough to function as well as I currently am...which is quite sad, actually.
So, yes. Not good.

But just so you know, things are not doing very well in the treatment areas either...or still =/. If my two specialists and my specialist/regular doc, Dr. Fetters, can't come up with an aggressive plan of action in the next two days, then we may be heading to a special Fibromyalgia clinic in Ohio a month sooner than we anticipated. Nothing so far has worked. The cortisol shots crippled me for days, and, instead of offering pain relief, caused me more pain, especially under the shoulder caps where they did 2 of the 4 injections. The IV therapy didn't work either.
So now, with limited movement and severe pain and exhaustion triggered by the slightest amount of activity, I'm pretty much confined to my bed. But, today's a bad day. Hopefully I will have a few "better" days this week. Still...if you could keep me in your prayers, also praying that the doctors can find something...ANYTHING to help me, that would be great.

*sigh*
That's really all I have the energy to type up at the moment.
I'll work on keeping you updated. You can always go back and listen to yesterday's Indie Music playlist if you wish...It'll be another week (hopefully) before I post the next Saturday Sounds. This coming Saturday's pick? Symphonic Metal. That came at the request of a friend of mine. Yes Carl, he asked before you inquired about soundtracks =P Just be patient. Classic Rock, Cello, New Age, Piano, Improv, Musical Comedy Sketches, and your beloved Soundtracks will be premiering on their own special Saturdays soon enough.

So good evening, my dear friends. I hope your day was wonderful, and I'll be praying for you all!

Love,
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Saturday, October 2, 2010

Saturday Sounds: Indie

Alright. So! For today's "Saturday's Sounds", I have a playlist uploaded below of a few of my favorite or current "likes" in the Indie Genre. Some of you may disagree with the classification of the music, but oh well. It's a debatable subject!
Indie stands for "Independent", or non-mainstream. But that doesn't mean they're bad. Often, while there are quite a few "kooks" in the genre, you will find many imaginative, original, and awesome songs and bands, instead of the Same-ol' same-ol' that you get on the radio these days. I recently saw a picture that made fun of the monotony of the radio: "100fm, the same 100 songs over and over and over and over" XD hahaha

ANYway.... *chuckle*
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Friday Funny: The Invention of the Spoon (with Pictures!)

So, since I was unable to sleep much tonight, I decided to go ahead with the Friday funny (although it will be published Saturday morning...reeeeaaallly early =P)

There is a question on blogger about your thoughts on the possible origins of a fork. Did it evolve from the spoon? And that got me thinking....where did the spoon come from? And then I had a marvelous idea of doing a short comic strip using images I drew in Microsoft painter to tell the story (Much like a favorite blog of mine, "Hyperbole and a Half")
So here is a silly tale of how the spoon was invented....in pictures, and a few words.
Enjoy!!!


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Once upon a time, there was a little blob, called "Blob". He was small, grey, and round.
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Friday, October 1, 2010

Shout Out! - Blog With Substance Award

Well, As I mentioned in my last post, I'd be doing a shout out to Eleanor Roscuro from "Musings of an Undiscovered Genius", who named me in her list of blogs deserving of the "Blog With Substance" award. YAY!
And Here's the pic I designed for the award. Feel free to make your own, or take this one :)












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